She
ONLY to be twin elements of joy
In this extravagance of Being,
Love,
Were our divided natures shaped
in twain;
And to this hour the whole world
must consent.
Is it not very marvellous, our
lives
Can only come to this out of a
long
Strange sundering, with the years
of the world between us?
He
Shall life do more than God? for
hath not God
Striven with himself, when into
known delight
His unaccomplisht joy he would
put forth,—
This mystery of a world sign of
his striving?
Else wherefore this, a thing to
break the mind
With labouring in the wonder of
it, that here
Being—the world and we—is
suffered to be!—
But, lying on thy breast one notable
day,
Sudden exceeding agony of love
Made my mind a trance of infinite
knowledge.
I was not: yet I saw the will of
God
As light unfashion’d, unendurable
flame,
Interminable, not to be supposed;
And there was no more creature
except light,—
The dreadful burning of the
lonely God’s
Unutter’d joy. And then, past
telling, came
Shuddering and division in the
light:
Therein, like trembling, was
desire to know
Its own perfect beauty; and it
became
A cloven fire, a double flaming,
each
Adorable to each; against itself
Waging a burning love, which was
the world;—
A moment satisfied in that
love-strife
I knew the world!—And when I fell
from there,
Then knew I also what this life
would do
In being twin,—in being man and
woman!
For it would do even as its
endless Master,
Making the world, had done; yea,
with itself
Would strive, and for the strife
would into sex
Be cloven, double burning, made
thereby
Desirable to itself. Contrivèd
joy
Is sex in life; and by no other
thing
Than by a perfect sundering,
could life
Change the dark stream of
unappointed joy
To perfect praise of itself, the
glee that loves
And worships its own Being. This
is ours!
Yet only for that we have been so
long
Sundered desire: thence is our
life all praise.—
But we, well knowing by our
strength of joy
There is no sundering more, how
far we love
From those sad lives that know a
half-love only,
Alone thereby knowing themselves
for ever
Sealed in division of love, and
therefore made
To pour their strength always
into their love’s
Fierceness, as green wood bleeds
its hissing sap
Into red heat of a fire! Not so
do we:
The cloven anger, life, hath left
to wage
Its flame against itself, here
turned to one
Self-adoration.—Ah, what comes of
this?
The joy falters a moment, with
closed wings
Wearying in its upward journey,
ere
Again it goes on high, bearing
its song,
Its delight breathing and its
vigour beating
The highest height of the air
above the world.
She
What hast thou done to me!—I
would have soul,
Before I knew thee, Love, a
captive held
By flesh. Now, inly delighted
with desire,
My body knows itself to be nought
else
But thy heart’s worship of me;
and my soul
Therein is sunlight held by warm
gold air.
Nay, all my body is become a song
Upon the breath of spirit, a
love-song.
He
And mine is all like one rapt
faculty,
As it were listening to the love
in thee,
My whole mortality trembling to
take
Thy body like heard singing of
thy spirit.
She
Surely by this, Beloved, we must
know
Our love is perfect here,—that
not as holds
The common dullard thought, we
are things lost
In an amazement that is all
unware;
But wonderfully knowing what we
are!
Lo, now that body is the song
whereof
Spirit is mood, knoweth not our
delight?
Knoweth not beautifully now our
love,
That Life, here to this festival
bid come
Clad in his splendour of worldly
day and night,
Filled and empower’d by heavenly
lust, is all
The glad imagination of the
Spirit?
He
Were it not so, Love could not be
at all:
Nought could be, but a yearning
to fulfil
Desire of beauty, by vain
reaching forth
Of sense to hold and understand
the vision
Made by impassion’d body,—vision
of thee!
But music mixt with music are, in
love,
Bodily senses; and as flame hath
light,
Spirit this nature hath imagined
round it,
No way concealed therein, when
love comes near,
Nor in the perfect wedding of
desires
Suffering any hindrance.
She
Ah, but now,
Now am I given love’s eternal
secret!
Yea, thou and I who speak, are
but the joy
Of our for ever mated spirits;
but now
The wisdom of my gladness even
through Spirit
Looks, divinely elate. Who hath
for joy
Our Spirits? Who hath imagined
them
Round him in fashion’d radiance
of desire,
As into light of these exulting
bodies
Flaming Spirit is uttered?
He
Yea, here the end
Of love’s astonishment! Now know
we Spirit,
And Who, for ease of joy,
contriveth Spirit.
Now all life’s loveliness and
power we have
Dissolved in this one moment, and
our burning
Carries all shining upward, till
in us
Life is not life, but the desire
of God,
Himself desiring and himself
accepting.
Now what was prophecy in us is
made
Fulfilment: we are the hour and
we are the joy,
We in our marvellousness of
single knowledge,
Of Spirit breaking down the room
of fate
And drawing into his light the
greeting fire
Of God,—God known in ecstasy of
love
Wedding himself to utterance of
himself
Edward Thomas (Lascelles
Abercrombie)
(England 1878 – France 1917)